Anticipatory Hell

Does waiting for things really make this time more exciting?

I think, a positive result will cumulate maybe to a more exciting response; however, I can't see the patience pushing process really being as "exciting" as some people may experience.

I've been waiting in my relative time frame for something that shouldn't take long at all, and i'm changing because of it. Why? Because I need to make a decision, and this result weighs my decision making quite heavily. Damnit, i'm near annoyed.

The process of waiting is relative of course. Waiting in line at your local coffee shop while the earth lover in front of you specifies which soy milk he wants is different than the millions of people waiting to hear back from their banks, mortgage companies, and job offers. It's a surreal world and thinking about my garnering impatience makes me feel guilty because maybe i'm only promoting the "we want it now" American stereotype. As cultured as I am in this degenerative nation, I feel like I have reasonable boundaries with patience. I realize each and every one of us relies on our fellow citizens every day, and this causes worry and expecations. Worry that we cannot move on if our reliable citizen fails, and expectations that our reliances are solid and will come through. It's not always going to happen as smoothly and as efficiently as we think it should be, and I - no "we" - don't really know how to come to grips with that. What do you do if you can't move on because something or someone else has stalled your plans?

As impatient as I may seem right now, I haven't even hit the trenches yet relative to my fellow Americans who are experiencing the need for reliance and trust on so many undeterminable variables.